I love the idea of blogging and would love to build a journal, an online collection of words and pictures, something for me and everyone able to relate to what I have to say.
A couple of weeks ago, I wrote a post that was very honest for a person like me. This was very unusual for me; I don't like to share negative feelings I have about myself because I want this space to be positive and a joy for you all to read. I do, however, think it was nice to let it out for once. I am generally a happy person, but we all have bad days!
After writing that post, I felt weird. I thought about deleting it. Sometimes it's hard letting everyone see your weaknesses! It got me thinking about blogging and how it's so easy to fall into that trap of trying to please everyone.
I love to blog, even though I don't blog that often, I still love it. Sometimes, though, I feel this pressure to be consistent and only write about the good things. I feel pressure to promote myself and be different and fresh. But then, I feel like my blog is turning into something I don't want it to become. The reality of it is, sometimes I don't want to take pictures of every little thing I do or eat because sometimes I just want to enjoy life!
I want my words to flow organically and I want them to be honest and sincere. Blogging consumes my thoughts on a daily basis.
Right now, I'm in a really good place. I love my life and the people in it. I want to make sure I cherish these moments. Because of this, I think I'll take a break. Not like I haven't been on a break these past couple of weeks, but I mean a REAL break. I am going to try to not feel pressure about blogging and coming up with new posts.
Right now, I'm a little confused. Sometimes it's hard to see the point because you don't actually see people reading your words. It makes me wonder if my words have ever resonated with anyone, if what I'm doing is making a difference in any way. This will most likely not be a long break, it might not even last a month! I just hope to find some clarity when it comes to blogging.
I hope you all stay with me while I'm on break :-). I do appreciate all of your sweet comments so far and am SO thankful for all of the amazing people I have met because of this.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this subject, can any of you relate?